Raw

Good morning, world.  Buenos dias, ohayoo gozaimasu, zhou sun, do sin, bon matin, k:odon a’wa dewa’kya…

The past 48 hours:

Guest teacher in a high school classroom. Senior English where I told students don’t listen to their teacher when they say something will happen… check out their claim and find evidence.

Then 9th Grade English where there were wiggly squiggly worms in grown up sized bodoes, with sass and snark, and unsure of why they had the sass and snark when questioned.

Then finding out that the bill I had written was not going to be continued, because there just isn’t enough time before the deadline.  And the frustration I felt with the system, because I realized the system does not support the voices of those who are uneducated — not because they don’t have the desire, but — because the system does not allow those who are poor to participate.

The system that keeps the poor people working, and unable to stop their jobs, because then they risk losing their homes, and having no food.

The story gets twisted: That the rich are taking bigger risks when they re-invest their wealth, and they could lose it all.  And this narrative perpetuates the cycle of poverty and crime.

I am now realizing that narrating all 48 hours is unnecessary, and perhaps distracting.  So I jump ahead to this morning, and a comment I wrote on a post I posted:

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My comment:

Thanks everyone for comments so far. I appreciate the different perspectives. We definitely need to lay the groundwork ahead of time that we do the best that we can, where we are, when we are.

We should not shame nor expect nor guilt others who are unable to speak up.

However, we have a very real problem and potential problem of people being lulled into the idea that it is okay to scream angrily at a video game: “WHAT THE HECK!! I HEADSHOT HIM WITH A REVOLVER! WHY ISN’T HE DEAD?!”

And we have a culture that has been blaming, shaming, and guilting parents, teachers, and others for our children’s inappropriate behaviors.

We must meet them where they are. We must help them process what they see.

And unfortunately, there are people of various ages in our community who have no empathy, or lack empathy, because of situations that were beyond their control.

We must teach self-control, and an understanding that there are areas we cannot control, and that it is NOT OUR RIGHT TO CONTROL OTHERS.

There are choices. Always choices.

VIVA LA REVOLUCION!!
❤ Felicia
Chewfortucson.wordpress.com

The other event over the past 48 hours is in regards to my music production efforts with my great genius producer.  I remembered:

The most beautiful moments are the raw ones, which we aren’t able to record…. because those are the magical ones that keep us in the present moment and connected with others.

Last thoughts for this morning:

I have suffered from not being able to work with many people long-term because I think everyone is out to get me; it is a result of being consistently in controlled relationships for a long time.

And that is why I fight.

 

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